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Post by Redd Mami on Mar 7, 2005 18:35:22 GMT -5
Well ever since Houston (the singer) attempted suicide I decided that I have to get this off my chest otherwise I really would do something I regret and since I feel close to some of ya'll the best place to vent was here and it's free hell.....plus ya'll keep it MADDD real... n e way....Depression runs in the family well from my fathers side it's a very very very very very serious issue and I have been going through it since I was about 9 only one time I almost had a nervous breakdown thank god I had real friends and they told one of the teachers at my school.....Well that "slump" is back again......I don't know what to do with myself.....I try to look at my beautiful baybee boi and I hate to say it but that doesn't help I mean I know I love the hell outta my lil mayne but something is seriously going on......I spend most of my time crying and not eating.....*SIGH* I don't know if i'm back in my slump because im a stay at home mom or is it for the simple fact that certain ppl take my kindness for a weakness.........*Rubbing forehead*......I really don't know..........last night I almost had another nervous breakdown but I picked up the phone right away and called mah homegurl and she did the most nicest thing for me........she sent me a lil sound file with her daughter singing Ordinary People.....That was priceless......N e who......Open for Feedback....and I guess i'll juss use this post i put up to write out my feelings......I think i have already said too much......
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thegoddess
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Post by thegoddess on Mar 7, 2005 20:35:59 GMT -5
vixen... what you have to realize is that depression is a medical condition. it's an illness, not a mood. therefore, it doesn't necessarily take any particular event or feeling to trigger it. it's a chemical imbalance in the brain, and the negative things that go on in your life are heightened by that imbalance. you're not alone. i've had it since the death of my mother when i was 10, if not before, and i've only been getting treated for it for the last few years. i've been on meds for two years now. some people criticize taking anti-depressants because they think you should "tough it out," but sometimes that's not enough. and you know how us black folks are. we're supposed to be invincible. but i don't think that's fair. if you got CANCER, it would seem perfectly normal to get treated for that, but because depression is a mental sickness, it's somehow the sufferer's fault!
if nothing else, you should seek some counselling. and pray. pray a lot. if you decide not to go the medical route, there are also herbal remedies such a st. john's wort that help increase seratonin flow to the brain, and b-complex vitamins (i take super b complex) that also help with mood disorders. more than anything, don't suffer in silence. talk to friends and loved ones, get yourself out of the house, and be proactive about healing!
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ManicD513
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Post by ManicD513 on Mar 10, 2005 2:50:19 GMT -5
If you seek help...question credentials and get a second opinion. I was never properly diagnosed, but they loved prescribing medication to me. I'm unclear of if I have depression, bi polar disorder, manic depression or whatever. All I know is my Sophmore and Junior year in high school was spent contemplating my demise. I think I tried to kill myself a total of 15 times at the very least. I lost count really, it was that many times. All I can do is count the scars on my arm and try to think of how many bottles of asprin and nyquil I downed with liqour (God's grace that none of that worked.) But home girl, stay strong. There are moments where the world is getting me down, and I can recall one very crazy night last year in November where I was willing to die again. Girl, nobody was more disapointed at that trail of blood than I was. ALthough the site of it calmed me, I knew I had broken a promise to myself. I also knew that God had great intentions for me and that's why I'm still here. So if you choose to go without medication like me, make sure you're not alone often. (Trust me....the voices have a way of getting to you worse when you're alone...unless you don't have voices...then never mind.) But never cut your communication with God...always look to family and friends...and most importantly...establish purpose for yourself. When you have something to live for...it makes it harder for your sanity to leave you. One more thing: My best friend and I suffered similar problems. (she's the one the psych ward at Children's Hospital caught a hold of...they'll never take me ALIVE!) Anyhow: whenever we were feeling low, numb and whatever, we cheered ourselves by shouting out loud one insane word: Hugbees. Give it a try...scream it at the top of your lungs...you'll feel really dumb, but happy. ;D
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